There's a couple of reasons, firstly university has been super stressful for me lately, secondly I put the pro in procrastinate and thirdly I've been going through a lot of personal issues recently (which I may touch on in a later post).
Final exams for the year are coming up in a couple of weeks and I'm so not ready, my current strategy is ignore your problems and pretend they'll go away if you don't think about them (spoilers this is a terrible plan and never works). I'm the kind of person who'll say I just don't care anymore, why do I even bother, while still studying hard and trying to get good grades. Unfortunately due to my tendency towards anxiety, none of my efforts are ever high enough for my own ridiculously high standards so everything tends to spiral down into disappear, doubt and a whole lot of unnecessary worry, all culminating in me passing well ahead of a large percentage of other students but still being unhappy with my score. Fun times.
I feel like I'm being a bit more chill about it than usual this trimester though, not sure if that's a good or bad thing, I guess we'll see,
After that, four glorious months of holiday during which I plan to
- Sleep
- Sleep
- Sleep some more
- Watch all of the TV shows
- Do some ridiculously detailed embroidery so I can look artistic while not actually doing art
- Eat all the food
- Read all the books I didn't read because I had to do the stupid required readings for university we never even used for anything pratical
- Sleep even more
Anyway, sorry if none of the above makes any sense/is written in any kind of logical order, my brain has stopped functioning due to the fact that assignments have messed my sleep schedule up.
